Want him back, I just miss my friend.

But friends can be replaced, right?

Went to the doctors. Signed off work with depression.
I’m so lucky I had my grant late, I couldn’t deal with money issues.
I think I’ll do everything I planned to do this week. But then I think I’ll bugger off to my parents next week and spend some time with them.
Although my mother does grind on me, I think it might be helpful to be back in a place where love is unconditional, no matter how much a head case you are.

Currently I’m in the back of a van on the way to the farm. My father is driving and even though I haven’t seen him in months, I don’t want to talk to him.

All I want is a cigarette.

Day today.

Got home, cue breakdown.
Can’t even force myself to go to work and to be honest I don’t even care if I lose my job.

Doctors tomorrow, maybe they’ll help me find my appetite and help me sleep.

I’d love to sleep for a whole day.
Anyone is free to join me.

I went back to sleep.. Dreamt about them two and it was really weird..
Me and her were in the same university, I told her that I would like to be her friend but not his and told him to remember her birthday present.. Then I threw her blusher at her, where she stored her tobacco, and then he turned into a Chav..
And then I watched Timone and Pumba on VHS..

Very weird..

For the first time in three weeks, I finally sleep in my bed and not on my sofa.. I fell asleep just after 12pm and now I’m bloody awake at 6am!!
At least on the sofa I’d have an hour extra..
I wish I could think about other things right now, I’d love to go back to sleep..

An exam tomorrow but have been really down today so decided I will go out..
But thanks to the ex, I’m no longer close to any of my friends..

Still want to get drunk, Stella’s in the house sounds quite depressing but Sin Savers is calling..

Also have decided to throw a house party at some point this summer..
Old friends (hopefully) and new..
I’m actually quite looking forward to this :)

So just going to enjoy my fancy 99p store noodles because my parents are not the greatest of landlords and see where this night ends..

Get drunk